I just finished reading “The Pioneer Woman’s” blog posts on her love story “Black Heels to Tar Heels” (or something like that) there are like 30 something posts but they are so good! I know not very appealing to the masculine heart (sorry male readers), oh well. Question.Can you tell by the use of that word (masculine) that I have just finished another Ludy book? Well I have, I just finished reading “Answering the Guy Questions” by Leslie Ludy. Honestly I don’t know that it answered all that many questions (not that I had many). But it was a good refresher/ mentor as I continue to walk this path. Lately I have defiantly been growing. I honestly don’t even care about meeting my man (most times) and when I do care and get lonely I am learning to apply this quote:

“Don’t satisfy their loneliness with relationships. Christ-like princesses are found on their knees in hidden retreats with their King or in the battlefield of human service or in diligent study of their Princes ways”

(I found the quote in the Guy Question book.)

Funny thing is I know God is changing me because about 3 weeks ago I wrote to God after my car broke down and I asked for a friend-my “godly friends” prayer. My “godly friend’s prayer” has been my request for the past couple of months to anyone who asks how they can pray for me. The “godly friend” prayer started in august as our small group restarted and I was once again the youngest by a good twenty years, alone in our church I wanted relationships! Then like 2 weeks ago I went to a dark quiet parking lot at church and sobbed my guts out. I mean crying, snot, tears, the whole deal. I was begging and pleading and screaming for a friend. I then cried everything from “could not see the road tears” to “slight sniffles”  the whole way home- after the 30min parking lot cry session!  Now BIG priority shift! I feel like such an idiot for wanting a “godly relationship” I mean I know that such a thing exists- I have had them before. But to be honest I feel like such an idiot! As I was crying out to God for a friend he just let me stand there, always at my side, never mean, probably a little sad that I was forsaking him for a human. For example I recently prayed:

“Dear Lord,

I want JoeorJane to become a friend with who I can grow in you with. But I don’t know that heshe knows you as I do, and it makes me sad. I want a friend!  Lord give contentment or send me a friend. Amen”

HAHAHA major “light bulb moment” God has given me contentment !!! (hence I know I am changing)

Dear Lord,

I recant those prayers for relationships. I was not relying or turning to you, I am sorry. I now just want to know you more! Amen.

Wow don’t know what to write. I started this entry because the pioneer love story stirred my heart for an earthly romance but now I am ending with overwhelming love- joy for my Prince- as it should be! God is so cool!

So I know that quote is true and I think and hope it is starting to happen in my life. I don’t even want relationships now- as they would distract me from my Prince. K I’m gonna say bye before I trip over my tongue. Bye

I hope that was somewhat easy to follow...sorry if it was not I will be working on it later I just wanted to get it published!

hahah I am talking w/ a friend in Alaska and she just SOOooo made my day in the "Godly Friend" area. She is a Lilly among thorns! Neat how you submit to God he really does give you your hearts desire!