Last summer I learned about how God is my protector. This summer I have been realizing the power of prayer. I prayed to get up here. God moved mountains to make it happen, and he let me have excess resources, and he has held my car together as I have put over 1,000 miles on it in 2 weeks! I really need to just make a list of all he has done in the past month... anyhow I have been learning about prayer.
I have learned that even if I don't believe yet, if I trust him he can make things happen...then I'll believe. I have learned that the best way to fight loneliness, depression, grumpiness, etc. is to start praying for people. It really has worked out quite nicely. Whenever I start to feel down I have started to pray for a few friends back home. It's hard to be sad when you are fighting for someone you love. (and maybe the devil connects prayer with attacking me...hehe God wins)
I have learned that taking steps in faith is okay. When I first started to come up here my Mom prayed, in my head I knew God good do great things, but I did not trust it with my heart. Now I trust God's ability with my heart. I pray for protection for me and others. I pray for hope, I pray for comfort, and love, for peace, and stamina, I pray for wisdom. When praying for a little sister I get peace, it almost sounds selfish that I would pray just to get peace but I'm not praying just for me.
I feel like Paula must have felt some days. I understand how her heart must have broken for her little sisters, I understand how our Titus 2 conversations are playing out in reality...it's an amazing but hard thing. I want to tell my little sisters so much. I won't go against their parents and they don't like me for that some days and that is tough. I want to hug them till their ribs crack. I want to just drive down to AL and sit in a field and talk. I want to play with chalk. I want to laugh and cry and be there for them in person. But all I have are email, text's, and letters and it's hard. Some of my girls have gone through so much and all I can do is pray. In my head I know that prayer is more than enough but it is still hard.
So I am learning to pray, little prayers, fervent prayers, half blonde oh-yeah! moment prayers, but prayers none the less.
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Hey you. I hope you get my letter soon. BTW, I wanted to remind you about those in your life that you have come very close to! Whatever God did through me to love on you, it was not something I intentionally did! God works things out when we are so unaware... remember that when God created Eve from Adam, God put Adam to sleep... that way nobody could get any credit for anything except God alone. I love you very much, and I am praying for you... but remember to follow God's open doors and keep praying. I had to learn that the hard way.
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